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Orientation prep. Sour grapes.
And two days later, there is another session. However because i cant really assist people very well due to the muscle ache, they think it is better for me to rest and Louis ended up doing almost everything >< Oh and Xiao Yu is really good at assisting the climbers as well, but he is nowhere as good as Louis, probably due to his build. I mean, if you are rounder you can usually take more weight and is more comfortable for the climber. Oh and Xiao Yu keep saying "lunch you" instead of "launch you" so we keep laughing at him. xD Haiz, so there is this practice run and a dry run (not really dry since it rained) of the Scouts and Guides performance later in the day. For the practice run, we took 1min 44 sec in the entire procedure to hang 4 scarves (standard is 6 scarves, but we have absentees and injuries so only have 2 climbers, so they went up twice and thats 4 :P) and the dry run we took 1 min 30+sec in the entire procedure to hang 5 scarves. A great improvement. But actually i think the target for us is 1 min 30 sec to hang 6 scarves in the entire procedure or 1 min for just the hanging of scarves. >< So difficult. But i guess they also wont really care about timing since they just expect scarves to be hanged up there. xD ok shall end the post. Bye. :P
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Seriously... When will this end?
Ok again, family matters. I am seriously upset about them bothering me now and then. When will they learn that i dont like to be disturbed by them? I mean, who like to be disturbed for some small thing that does not hold any significance, and worse of all you cant stop them irritating you. And when you get fed up and throw a tantrum it will be your fault. Wow, it sounds like such a joke that i almost laughed as i type this out. I mean like seriously.... There is a little bit of rice in the sink and he call it wasting food. Then he tell me (who hate wasting food) to look at it. I roughly know what he will talk about so i ignored him, then he come marching up to me and tell me i shouldnt ignore him. Then he say i am just a middle school student and he is a university professor and i should look up to him and respect him. I cant stand it anymore and i threw out a vulgarity, and from a conflict just between me and him become a conflict between me and the rest of the family. I mean like seriously, even though they are family, what on Earth do they know about me? All they know is basic physical infomation. No, i dont even think they can tell me weight or NRIC. Or probably they dont even know the existence of DHSmail or my blog. Tsk, even if they know i would have kept the exact URL hidden from them. They dont know the real me at all. All the while i am just avoiding them so that i wont get mad at them. Those stories in anime or visual novels... I seriously envy the main character. Ok i wont expect much since those are mostly just stories, but many of those stories at least have one or two friends that understand the main character or the main character understand one of the other characters.... I mean, if there isnt fantasy in this world like those in animes, at least let me have a friend that can really understand me.... It really hurts sometime when no one understand.... Ok maybe i am just self pitying.. Shall end off the post early since i dont have much time left to play as i need to wake up early tomorrow. >< See ya. :D
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Music :D
I believe there are chunks (Not sure if this is a correct word to describe songs... but oh well, the meaning is about there. :P) of songs about Angel Beats!, Clannad, Vocaloids and G Senjou no Maou. Since i am talking about these, shall just do a short review on these. :P
Angel Beats! is a really nice anime about a guy called Otonashi Yuzuru who happen to stumble into the Afterlife world when his soul lost its memories. His soul should have been reincarnated because he actually lived a fulfilling life. That Afterlife world is only for people who died with regrets. So while he tries to regain his memories, he helped out others who died with regrets in the Afterlife world to get rid of their regrets and leave the world in peace.
Clannad is a really really nice anime (Note the number of "really" i used compared to Angel Beats!. ^^ Hahaha) Clannad can be classified as "Supernatural", but actually only the After Story included Supernatural that affect the story. Oh by the way Clannad After Story can be considered as "Season 2" of Clannad, it is often said as "Clannad AS". :P Clannad is about this guy called Okazaki Tomoya helping this girl called Furukawa Nagisa to fulfill her dream of recreating the Drama club as she love acting. Throughout the process the duo happen to meet others who needs help and ended up helping them. And in the end Tomoya and Nagisa became a couple and lived happily ever after. Haha just kidding, they continued living together in After Story and had a child. Wait having a child is later on. First is Nagisa having to retain one more year(she was one year older Tomoya and this will be her third time taking the Third Year) due to her poor attendance thanks to a weird disease that haunted her since young. During the child birth Nagisa died because of the disease, and Tomoya sank into depression. The child, called Okazaki Ushio grew up with her grandparents (Nagisa's parents). Later on Tomoya realised that he was really a bad father for not being strong and taking care of Ushio (In fact he insulted his own father for being a failure when he was younger.) And he went to take care of Ushio. However, Ushio happen to get the same disease as Nagisa and died in the coming winter. Okazaki cried out in despair. The previous times when he and Nagisa helped others, they happened to collect orbs of light each time they fulfill the person's wish. The orbs of light are magical and with all those orbs of light, somehow, without Tomoya knowing, brought him 5 years back to the time when Nagisa was giving birth to Ushio. In this timeline, Nagisa did not die and didnt have that disease. Ushio was all healthy and the family lived happily ever after. ^^ Wait I think this is more of a super super short summary rather than a review. But never mind... xD
Vocaloids... Hmm... How should i put it.. They are programs that are programmed to sing. Yeaps, thats about all. :P
G Senjou no Maou is a visual novel. A really nice yet sickening one. Nice because the story are really nice and characters are well developed and i like most of the characters. Sickening because it reveals a lot of evil about the world. Like gangsters, murders, etc etc. And the main character is maintaining a double character of a high school student and the brains of the company of the gangster. Oh by the way the main character is called Kyousuke. Original name was Samejima Kyousuke i think, but after he got adopted by a gangster leader to pay back his real father's debts (in fact his real father was sabotaged into those debts) he was forced to change his surname name to Azai Kyousuke. Even though i plays as the Kyousuke, the story slowly centers on Kyousuke's brother (Not really sure his name, since he is always referred to as the "Maou") Oh and it is rated as 18+ but in fact only have a few h-scenes. Might as well take out the h-scenes and sell as an all-age visual novel. -.- Oh and the best part of the visual novel is not just the characters. It is the music. Almost all of the music are edited from Classical music. Actually they edited the pieces so much that i cant identify the original piece for most of them even after hear the (supposed) originals a few times. xD Some of the OSTs that i like are in the Mixpod Playlist. I think they are at around track 50+. Enjoy the music!! :D
Yeap and thats about it for now. Of course most of the songs in the playlist are my favourites. :D There are more but i lazy add for now. Haha so basically this turned into a review on Angel Beats!, Clannad and G Senjou no Maou... I am seriously capable of digressing... I just wanted a brief review and yet i wrote so much... Never mind though, since i am waiting for the download of another visual novel. xD Haha. I mean seriously, i cant really seem to find many good animes already. So i guess i shall just play the visual novels for the moment. Maybe later on i will stumble upon good animes like how i stumble upon Angel Beats! and made myself first addicted to anime world. Oh just saying, at that point of time, i am more of addicted to Angel Beats! rather than anime. But i shall just say it as "addicted to anime" xD And of course, when 774 introduced to me D Gray Man and I deciding to watch other KEY animes (KEY is a company that produce visual novels/storylines that are made into animes. The anime that i watched that are made by them are Angel Beats!, Clannad, Kanon and Air.) caused me to be addicted to anime again. xD Oh, even though i included a lot of their music in the playlist, those are not my favourite anime world. I think my favourite anime world is Toaru Kagaku no Railgun, which anyone can be an esper. :D How cool that would have been... Maybe will talk about that next time. :D Ok, shall end the post here. :D
P.S. Again, i didnt bother reading through so there may have lack of structure here and there. xD Sorry. :P
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Lion Dance Training is back. Mixed Feelings....
So today, woke up at 8am and left home at about 8.30am. The journey to school today took surprisingly long. I reached school at 9.50am. Lucky that training starts at 10am, so got some time to change... Argh. I look stupid even in Lion Dance uniform with my new haircut. I guess i should have cut the fringe. But still, I find Lion Dance uniform cool~~ xD Hahaha. So i revised some Cymbal parts, and then went to learn a bit Lion Back. If i improve a lot i might have the chance to perform as a Lion Back this coming Cai Qing, or maybe CNY performance! Haha just kidding, with my skills now the most i can is to make it to Cai Qing. CNY is a bit too.... After all, i take no interest in the Cymbal section, even though the majority of the people are there. Lion Back training today includes just 单脚. Meaning the Lion Head guy jump onto the Lion Back guy's leg while the latter is in a position similar to a half squat. (Haha i dont know the proper terms xD) Tiring, and i cmi as usual. Oh well, thats expected, since i didnt train at all during the holidays. My chin-ups also deproved from 8 to 6. Haiz... Anyways, hope i get the proper recognition of a Lion Back soon.... As in passing the basic Cymbal test. Only then can i properly learn Lion Back. T^T But today is really fun! And on the way to MRT station, i had a nice chat with Jing Huang. He is so cool! >< Wonder if i can ever be like him or even surpass him in the area of personality. I mean, from time to time i still go around clinging onto guys. ._.
A bit tired today, so i shall keep the post short (again :( ) Bye~ :D
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New background pic :P
First thing in the morning, comp cant start up. T^T Cannot get past the OS logo. But luckily it got back to normal after some time... The comp is acting strange again. Argh. And after that, i realised i skipped Lion Dance training ._. Ahhhhhh!!! I totally forget that there is Lion Dance today >< Wait today i am spamming emoticons ._. Ok calm down.... Anyways, today got all worked up again because the world i am in is so different from the anime world... And again i dont get why did i get so upset over something that dont exist. Stupid me... Wow this is really short. But lazy write more for today. :P See you~ :)
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Family..
Well, i am in the wrong this time. I was rude and everything. But... I mean, when i was young, yes she did do a lot for me, and i was really a happy kid. But she didnt bother making my entire life a happy one. She didnt even bother about bringing my real family back together, and for all that i know i had always treat my dad like some stranger. Oh, talking about my dad... the last time i seen him was around P3. xD Well, it doesnt matter since i didnt know much about him anyways. All that i hear about my dad is how irresponsible and lazy he is (if this is true i guess the genes passed on to me T^T) and how he and his parents didnt care about me when i was a baby or spend all his money on cigarettes/alcohol etcetc. And they never seem to say how they tried to change his mentality or bear with it. I mean, if you do something wrong you either restart or repair the damage. But because i was born it is impossible to restart, so there is only repair. They never seemed to actually repair the relationship in the family. I mean, even in my memory they didnt seem to have any days which they are really happy and talk about random stuff happily... Ok i am digressing. Anyways, she continued saying that if she didnt care about me i wont be so healthy now. Yea right, if there is a indicator for mental health i bet i can score below 50/100. Physically yes i am quite healthy, but mental and physical are interrelated. I always thought that living is wonderful but all the while i was wondering what is so good about living that made it wonderful. Sometimes i told myself that just by living it is wonderful but it sounds like some weak self denial of some sort... And also my grandmum continued saying what it is Singapore education that made me so rude and want to complain to teacher when school reopen. Wow, i seriously wonder if it is school education that made me like this or family situations. Wait what? Family? Doubt if i had one in my heart. This again revived the pessimist side of me. I mean all the while i have been looking for a place which i belongs to and i have never found one. Just when i thought i found one it just change and prove my feelings wrong. Family, friends, CCA, Class, all proved me wrong. Ok maybe there is a few friends who are actually there for me. People like James Teo :P I just felt that even friends like Peng Fei are drifting away. Yea, they are always in their world of excellence while i am in my world of self denial and lies. Tsk. Not only that, my grandmum continue talking about all sorts of things, haiz lazy type already. I dont even want to count how many times i wrote something like that in this post. Anyways.. yesterday when i was listening to Doraemon Movie 2011 ED Kaeru Basho, i went to look for the meaning of the title and when i found it i almost cried. Guess thats what i was trying to find all along, even before today's event. The meaning is "A place to return"... :P
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._. What a camp.
Day 1
Camp development in the morning. We build a super tall kitchen tent (compared to the others) and a super tall gateway. The kitchen tent, although tall, was surprisingly stable (proven later on when all the other kitchen tents have collapsed corners/entirely collapsed while ours having only a little damage/no damage at all.) Our gateway looks grand but it is actually really simple. Yong Loong must have been really good at designs... Wonder if i can do a good job like him when i become a PL or APL. Our sleeping tent stands out among the rest. The other patrols all used dome tent/8-man tent (even though it is an 8 man tent, it is super small -.-) but we accidentally used a 16-man tent (according to Yong Loong, and it looks like it can only have around 12 man at max) Camp developement was until dinner, and then we are supposed to play 打野仗(a game which you have to tuck the scarf into the belt and then aim to snatch other's scarf). However, for some reason, it was cancel (actually postponed to the next day) and we attended a lecture with a variety of subjects ranging from the basics of camp development and the NPC (National Patrol Competition) We slept at around 12. Super tired. ._. I still remember how my throat was like on fire and my nose being blocked when i was trying to sleep. Wonder how did i fall asleep.
Day 2
First thing in the morning, inspection. Irritating. Take out everything, lay them neatly onto ponchos, stand aside and wait for Rovers to inspect, then pack everything back again. -.- Although it was on the track, there are still dozens of what i believe is millipedes crawling all over the place. ._. I am glad that i didnt end up finding one in my shirt later on. Then we had a flag raising ceremony. I actually got to raise my patrol flag! I feel super happy since it is my first time. Of course it is not really any honor but i still feel happy that i got to do it. Afterwards we have station based learning. That is when i learned how to pitch a hike tent and rope climbing. Of course, even now i am still not really sure about rope climbing. I mean like seriously, i am so heavy + whole holiday never exercise. How on earth can i get up there? ._. After each attempt to climb my fingers felt like they broke. Literally. The joints are so pain that i cant move my fingers for a few minutes after that. After station based learning we had OJ (Obstacle Journey) It is really tiring! >< However, there are a lot of things that are funny. For example, for the "Gas Chamber" station, i and Melvin Kok are the casualties. I and Melvin are both super heavy and naturally, we failed the station since there is only two member who is actually useful. Ok i should not criticise others when i am actually so weak, but seriously, the remaining members are 2 year 3s, 1 year 2 and 2 year 1s. The year 1s are practically useless, and one of the year 3 is... erm... Well lets say it this way, he have some sickness (i think is ADHD) and it affects him mentally. So he is also useless in ths station, So in the end I and Melvin "died" while Darren (a year 1) became unconscious. I guess that is the worse case scenario. T^T There are other stations as well, but not really that funny..>< When cooking dinner, (I forgot to mention that both nights require us to cook our own dinner. And both nights' dinner are pretty much screwed up :P) the teacher and i discussed on if i should go home since i am sick. The teachers believe that my illness is probably a cold and is not serious so they think i should stay and show support to my patrol. They say that if i am sick and i still stay my patrolmates will feel happy that i am so supportive. ._. But anyway since i also think the illness is not serious i just asked them to give me some medicine for cold and stayed on. Oh and in the night we had another lecture on random stuff that bored me to death... And at the end we played 打野仗 until 12. By right we are supposed to clean up some random stuff after that, but i just went to wash up and sleep (i was so tired that i ignored everything else. ._.) After i washed up i spammed Prickly Hear Powder on my body. For some reason i ended up freezing due to that. -.- I was struggling on my way back to the sleeping tent because it felt so cold(I believe the powder cause water to evaporate faster and end up freezing me. -.-). Lights out at 0100, but no one cared. Even i slept at 0130. By that time i still can hear Lion Patrol trying to rebuilt their kitchen tent (i forgot to mention that their kitchen tent collapsed entirely earlier xD) Later at 0230 the rest slept. They made so much noise that i woke up. -.- Then i took a torturous journey to the toilet. For some weird reason i woke again at 0500. And i took another torturous journey to the toilet. -.- Argh....
Day 3
Technically i already started talking about day 3 in the paragraph under day 2. But whatever... Day 3 is just packing up and go home. Nothing much to talk about. Just that we actually got dismissed punctually for once. Not exactly punctually since it was about 10 to 15 minutes late, but considering that most of the time things drag on to 1 or even 2 hours after estimated time of dismissal it is already really punctual. End of the camp. Hooray. :P
Overall the camp is quite fun, but really tiring and to me it is a waste of time. I mean it only trains my physical body and i believe i can achieve a better result if i just go to a gym an hour per day for 3 days. Of course 打野仗 is really fun and i forgot about my sickness during that time and ran all over the place. And i am kind of good at the game as well ^^ At least i am one of those few who had snatched more scarves than lost scarves. Ok shall end the post here ^^
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So far so good..
Firstly, cheers! I got above 2.8! Hmm this seem interesting, getting average with the cost of almost not studying. :D But its super irritating that my grandmum still pester me to study study. Even when i peacefully negotiate she still ignore the negotiations. -.- Nvm...
Secondly, time flies! I didnt notice that the last post i had posted 8 months ago. Wow... I didnt even notice that its been so long..
Thirdly, i became an anime addict. I guess i can be called an Otaku already. Everyday talk about anime/visual novels/manga... Buts its really nice in anime world... It is like a drug. But sometimes i would rather face a perfect but false world then to face my own irritating world. Especially with my grandparents around... I mean i am perfectly fine you dont have to bother me with every single thing....
Fourthly, I realised how rare it was for me to sms during the holidays since i was so addicted to the fake world of animes. xD I use to sms a LOT, like 400-500 sms per month but i bet now i sms less than 50. :P Though my Facebook is still spammed with random stuff [like Anime, OSTs, Vocaloids, Visual Novels etcetc]. xD
Fifthly, my relations with my family, especially grandparents, are still screwed. For some reason i find that their logic dont obey common sense. ._. I means like seriously, "I saw a teenager cockroach." I almost laughed on that one. I mean like seriously, you are not a research who research cockroaches, so how on earth do you know how old it is? And more over a "teenager cockroach" dont make sense in its phrasing at all [My grandpa said that in chinese, i simply direct translate :P] And blowing small problems out of proportions and irritating me [dunno is he really trying to be funny or what. -.-] Oh and my grandma... Whenever i watch anime/visual novel, she have to come and irritate me despite my countless explanations. And most of the time she just have to appear at the climax of the show and irritate the hell out of me. -.- Hai... shall talk more next time when i decide to complain again. xD
Sixth, bottled up feelings is the worst. I seriously wish that i am the main character of some of the anime/visual novel and live their life.. I mean even though they may not have all that i have, at least it is meaningful and they find it fun themselves. Wait.. maybe it is just that i am back to my pessimistic mode.... Argh... But even now i still dont know why i am still hiding from my feelings.. I feel so weird. A mixture of some random feelings. And i am escaping by hiding in some fake worlds that dont exist. Haha i guess that make myself a weird person. :P
Ok wait this post is getting too long. I guess i want to go continue playing visual novels. xD
Sixth, bottled up feelings is the worst. I seriously wish that i am the main character of some of the anime/visual novel and live their life.. I mean even though they may not have all that i have, at least it is meaningful and they find it fun themselves. Wait.. maybe it is just that i am back to my pessimistic mode.... Argh... But even now i still dont know why i am still hiding from my feelings.. I feel so weird. A mixture of some random feelings. And i am escaping by hiding in some fake worlds that dont exist. Haha i guess that make myself a weird person. :P
Ok wait this post is getting too long. I guess i want to go continue playing visual novels. xD
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